O’ Heavens,
What was that which caused my fall from Heaven ?
In you I was sure tranquility would find me.
How foolish of me to have believed,
That enclosed in caves of professed love and knowledge,
Despair would not seek me out once more,
And with its crushing blow, bring me to my knees
Face to face with the abyss once more.
To Hell with the Love I once held
And the truth I once knew,
Heaven or Hell,
What does it matter in the end ?!
Shall I continue being torn in two,
Between the promises of life and death ?
As the promises of life
Which sound so sweet,
Promise to bring me
But an interlude of peace ?
Joy and misery,
Hope and despair,
Life and death,
Love and hate,
Wisdom and folly,
Heaven and Hell
And all that fuckin’ trauma !
At last I have called the demons that have haunted me
By their rightful names,
But what good is bestowed knowledge
Where there is no hope ?
What good is the promise of tomorrow
When there is no longing ?
In truth, I didn’t really want to die,
I was just lookin’ for a reason to stay alive
But all I beheld was the aching outline
Of bygone hopes and dreams
Dwindling longings,
That would
Never
Be.
And with these dreams gone,
In whose name shall I go on ?
In whose name,
Shall I seek beauty set upon my wings once more,
That I may see the Universe in technicolor ?
In whose name,
Shall I seek those Elysian fields
High in those milky skies
That I may take my place among the stars ?
In whose name
Shall I seek life as a forgotten friend,
That I may re-introduce it to my Soul,
And rest easy in Love’s embrace ?
In whose name ?
I wonder…