O’ Heavens, What was that which caused my fall from Heaven ? In you I was sure tranquility would find me. How foolish of me to have believed, That enclosed in caves of professed love and knowledge, Despair would not seek me out once more, And with its crushing blow, bring me to my knees Face to face with the abyss once more.
To Hell with the Love I once held And the truth I once knew, Heaven or Hell, What does it matter in the end ?!
Shall I continue being torn in two, Between the promises of life and death ? As the promises of life Which sound so sweet, Promise to bring me But an interlude of peace ?
Joy and misery, Hope and despair, Life and death, Love and hate, Wisdom and folly, Heaven and Hell And all that fuckin’ trauma !
At last I have called the demons that have haunted me By their rightful names, But what good is bestowed knowledge Where there is no hope ? What good is the promise of tomorrow When there is no longing ?
In truth, I didn’t really want to die, I was just lookin’ for a reason to stay alive But all I beheld was the aching outline Of bygone hopes and dreams Dwindling longings, That would Never Be.
And with these dreams gone, In whose name shall I go on ? In whose name, Shall I seek beauty set upon my wings once more, That I may see the Universe in technicolor ?
In whose name, Shall I seek those Elysian fields High in those milky skies That I may take my place among the stars ?
In whose name Shall I seek life as a forgotten friend, That I may re-introduce it to my Soul, And rest easy in Love’s embrace ?
In whose name ? I wonder…